It's becoming a habit...

Each day I seem more relaxed and more comfortable with my new life style.although my legs hurt a lot during my walk tonight. I have already lost 2# which is very rewarding and my meal choices are becoming more routine! This is such a different start to the summer than this time last year so I feel very positive about where this time off will take me! <3 this happy feeling!

Happy Canada Day,eh!

Today was all about Red and White and why I am proud to call myself a Canadian! I have a great plan for the next two months and my transformation is just beginning. When I celebrate my 45th birthday two months from now, I anticipate seeing a different person! I CAN do this!

The Revolution-day 2

Now that the furniture has been moved, there is access to the Gazelle as well as my other equipment! Tonight I walked for over an hour and only came in because it was getting dark! Each time I go out, I have more of an urge to RUN which is exciting. Tomorrow, I plan to add more time to my workout and to pay even greater attention to my portions! I am so proud of my efforts! Hooray!

My Summer Revolution Has Begun!

After struggle and procrastination, I am proud to say that my new lifestyle has begun to take shape! It is wonderful to begin my summer vacation with a goal in mind: to lose enough weight to go back to work feeling healthy, strong and confident. Today I did 2 workouts and feel great (although I am aching a bit tonite!) I made healthy choices all day and feel well on my way to a new me! Hooray for me!

Zero Hour

Zero Hour

"Zero hour" is that crucial moment when there is no turning back, and it confronts you to the very core of your self-respect. You have become so sick of your habits and your pattern of living that you realize you can no longer live your life in that way. It's what alcoholics call "hitting rock bottom," or what others call "reaching the end of my rope." It's when you make your mind up that it's not too late, that you deserve more, and that you will deny yourself no longer. It's when you wipe the slate clean and are ready to start over. It's when you decide to reclaim your health and your life. This means that being overweight has taken on a special standing and urgency, lifting high above your other concerns in life. You have boldly said to yourself: "That's enough. I don't care how much it hurts to change. I don't care what I have to give up. I won't take this another second, another minute, another day of my life. I am ready." You know that your dignity and indeed your very being can take only so much, and when you reach this point, you are ready to start living strategically. You want more so you are ready to do more, and are already taking action to get it. Your old way of living is thrown off like a dirty shirt. Change will happen because you make it happen. It will happen because you know what you want and will move toward it in a committed, focused manner.

EXPECT SUCCESS
No matter how much you weigh, no matter how disgusted you are with what you see in the mirror, now is your chance to fix your weight problem for good and live out your best qualities. Believe me when I tell you that it is possible, you can do it, and you are worth it. You are a person with strength, gifts, and talents, capable of achieving your greatest goals. It's like that old saying, "God don't make no junk." You have what it takes to lose weight, be healthy, and live the life you desire and deserve. Now is the time to do it. Now is the time to unlock the doors to permanent weight loss. ~ Dr. Phil

Celebrating the new me!

I went back to work yesterday--apprehensive, a little overwhelmed--but I went. It turned out to be a good day: of course, some people had no idea (of my surgery) so to them I looked really tanned. But those who knew said I looked 50-60# lighter! Cate, my NP put it best: before it was the girls and then me that came into the room, now it's just me! When I look at my before pictures, I am shocked. I knew I was big, but I look HUGE! No wonder no one saw me! It really solidifies for me my need to focus and to lose. It also emphasizes why the surgery was so necessary. I don't have regrets but I wish that I'd taken this step sooner. Chances are, I wouldn't have been as ready, as healthy.
So now, it is time to embrace this new me! I am really starting to see changes and I LOVE all of them! I love my "sassy" new hair style and how my face doesn't look so round. I love how tall I feel because I am standing so confidently. I love how my clothes feel--not tight and not all black! I love how my skin looks--I actually went to a school event without foundation! I love how my waist and thighs are getting smaller because of all the walking I am doing (love that boardwalk in Goderich). I love that I can walk 3k and not be out of breath! I love that I can fit into tops like everyone else instead of having to buy over-sized tops to accommodate the girls. I love how they look now--almost completely healed just 3 weeks after surgery--perky and in proportion to the rest of the new me! I love that when I got on the (Wii Fit) scale this morning, I was below 250! I love how beautiful and confident I feel. I am SO PROUD of myself and although I still have a long way to go, I know that I can AND that I will!

biting my lip...

I was flipping through the usual mix of websites I read each day and stopped cold when I read that Ted Kennedy had died. He was the last of the Kennedy brothers and although I didn't know him personally, I felt sad. He was an honest, caring politician...the comments from leaders from across the world clearly states that, but I think I was most sad because I admired the way he lived his life: with purpose...so my goal is to do the same. Thank you Senator Kennedy and God bless you.